Mother's Day

    I have to admit, most mother's days I spend looking at the cute little  fingerpaintings and drawings the kids  leave for me and it is all about me. I never think deeply about the bond between a mother and the child I just appreciate the sweetness.  This mother's day is different, it is deeper and it makes me think...
     Almost two months  ago, I almost lost my mom. She spent 12 days on life support  and five days  beyond that  living in the hospital. These were the  worst  seventeen days of my life. I sit here  tonight and I wonder what I would have done without her. It's  the question I asked every night  as I cried on my husbands shoulder while she was held hostage by the ventilator with tubes  in every part of her. I can not imagine my life  without my mom.  I can't imagine that one day on mother's day, I won't have someone to call first thing in the morning and that one mother's day is going to be my last one with  her.
    My mother once said  that  no matter how old you are when you are faced with the death of both of your parents, you feel like an orphan, a helpless child again. So today when I look at my kids, my mother's day wish  is that I can live forever so my kids will never have to experience that loss and loneliness.  I want to cherish every moment with them, get all of the hugs and kisses I can, and remember every minute. Most of all, today, I want to take a minute and  say  Happy Mother's Day, MOM  I don't think I can find a word strong enough to tell you  how much I love you. Here's to many more  healthy, happy Mother's days, together.